Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known

OK, so on Christmas Eve A and I were sharing her West Coast Coolers because the Skyy Blue premixers I had were seriously dehydration (they even made the inside of my mouth feel dry!). So I decided I would buy some of the premixed we both like so we could share them tonight, and because I was feeling impulsive I decided to buy a carton because it was cheaper.

I asked the guy if I could have a mix of flavors, and he started to say no, but then agreed, so I got one of all the nice flavors (orange x 2, passion fruit x 2, guava and raspberry) and he even gave me a free camera, Weeee!! I got home and carefully unpacked each of the four packs so that four of them were one of each flavor, and the other two were orange and passion fruit. As I was repackaging the final four pack, I noticed it said vodka and I thought "Hmmm, it’s weird A likes these, she doesn’t drink vodka" and then I had the horrible realization that we drink BACARDI BREEZERS not VODKA CRUISERS. Dammit!! So now I have 24 Cruisers to work through. I know I might be able to return them, but I so can’t be bothered to unpick six little cartons and repackage them all again

I am actually super nervous about tonight, The Ex sent me a few more emails. One was having a bit of a go at A "for letting me think I wasn’t invited when he has spoken to Engaged Girl’s Partner who was meant to speak to A’s husband and tell them we were invited". I set him straight though. 1) A and her husband knew nothing about any invitation and 2) How dare he try and tell me one of my best friends would let me think something like that. He reckons everyone he knows will be coming tonight, so now we sort of have to go because we’ll look like the mean ones not to go after he made the effort to invite us.

Do you see why I hate that everyone is friends with everyone else? If we were not to go then so many other people would be offended just by proxy, and if we do go everyone will be all "Oh, well you can’t hate him that much if you turned up, hey?". Drama!!

It’s also totally going to rain tonight because I am going out, so I have to dress accordingly.

I have such a sore jaw at the moment. I have a terrible feeling that I have got (or am getting) and infection in one of my wisdom teeth, it’s the same area as the ulcer was. I am going to try and get an emergency appointment at the dentist on Tuesday or Wednesday. If I have to get them out right away, it will have super sucky consequences for so many things. Prac is set in stone, it has to be done in the dates outlined, those days start Friday of this coming week. So even if I could get them out say Wednesday or Thursday it leaves me absolutely no recovery time what so ever. My flights are set in stone, they have been e-ticketed so I can’t change it now, so if I don’t go, I lose almost $700 worth of flights. I know I still don’t know what the problem is, so it might all be fine, but I just have a feeling it’s not a good thing. It’s sort of a deep bone ache, I felt it when I had braces when they had been adjusted. I don’t want to risk getting some sort of terrible infection by ignoring it either.

The best situation I can see is that I may have to axe this semester and see if I can pick up the prac this time next year. I won’t get any credit for all the work I have done so far, but it will be a much cheaper option than abandoning my flights. I hope it’s not a bad infected sort of pain and that I can put the removal off until February, I will seriously cry if I have wasted almost my entire summer doing a subject that I can’t complete.

Well, enough sooking. I am going to take some painkillers, put on my party shoes and drink myself silly and worry about all this teeth/uni crap next year! Hope you all have a super NYE, I’m going to attempt to catch a taxi home tonight, I’m sure that will be fun (Enny, Adam, you know how much I love waiting for cabs!).

P.S Brisbane Bloggers, please let me know if you are in or out for the 6th, ASAP. I am going to make a reservation early this week so if you haven’t already let me know if you will be coming or not, please do as soon as you can.

As I have mentioned previously, D’Daddy is rather technologically challenged.

One of his friends who is about twenty years younger than him and sent him an SMS message to his new work phone (which has 3G, Bluetooth, Email, Camera, etc.) and wanted him to reply. D’Daddy was trying to figure this out, but couldn’t and asked me how he goes about printing a message from his phone.

After gently explaining that text messages aren’t actually sent on paper, I told him how to get in to type of a new message. D’Daddy explained the text was only coming up in numbers, so D’Mummy decided she’d be able to figure it out so they both hunched over the phone for a few minutes trying to work it out.

They got frustrated and asked me to help, I had a look and it was the "To:" field they were trying to enter text in to. I asked D’Daddy for the number, and I found out he was trying to type the recipients full name into the "To:" field. After we moved on from that hurdle, I put him into the message field and explained how to get the letters to come up (we aren’t going to attempt predictive text). When I walked past he had began the message with "Dear Jason…".

D’Daddy has been texting for about ten minutes and has stopped to take a break, he’s still on the same, original message.

Old people are HILARIOUS!!

(P.S I realize when I am fifty my kids will be blogging about how stupid I am because I can’t use the teleporting machine).

I was texting with A today about NYE (I am going to hers for a mini party) and I asked about Irritable Bowel Syndrome, because she has it. I know she can’t eat types of bread or much pasta because it makes her sick. She said it’s stress related and can really be caused by any foods. I had a bit of a Google and all my symptoms are exactly those of IBS, particularly the bloating and feeling of stomach heaviness.

It normally appears in times of stress. I thought I was traveling quite well in terms of stress, but it’s safe to say I have a massive two months ahead of me, and it’s entirely possible I have just been unconsciously stressing about it and have chosen not to actually recognize it.

A mentioned nuts make her sick as well, and now thinking about it I have been eating a lot of macadamias in the past couple of days. I think I’m going to stop that soon as well.

So today was my first dairy free day, I felt really bad until just after lunch but then my tummy started to settle down a bit and I felt like I was only four months pregnant, instead of the nine months like I’ve felt for a week.

Because I was feeling rather OK, I had a tuna Subway for dinner, still felt pretty good. Awesome. Let’s have custard…

I think it’s safe to say dairy is one of the culprits. Within minutes started to get all the unattractive symptoms I am not going to list for you. I think I am going to keep away from custard in the future. I hate that it’s actually diary which is making me sick, I was hoping it was some terrible coincidence! Now I do actually have to make an effort to change what I eat, poo! (no pun intended) No more haloumi, no more chocolate mousse, no more icecreams, I could just die (or just become much skinnier)!!

I want to buy a new pair of jeans but I feel so disgustingly bloated at the moment I’m scared to go shopping for them. Maybe if I buy a bolt of denim I might be able to wrap it around myself like some sort of denim sarong. I think I am going to go and buy a very large pair of drawstring pants and wear them until I shrink back down to normal. I am also going to buy a super large bottle of ginger pills, they are meant to be good for settling down fatty fat tummies like mine.

I feel like I’m falling to bits at the moment. I hope I don’t die, I will leave a terribly bloated corpse. If I stop blogging it means my stomach bloat has extended to my fingers and they have become too large for the laptop keyboard.

EDIT: To add the Meme Lulu tagged me for:

Four jobs I’ve had:

• Kitchenhand for promo BBQs
• Popcorn girl/assistant manager
• Cinema Usher/Toilet Cleaner/Cinema Cleaner/Slave
• Insurance Lady/Abuse Taker/Miracle Worker

Four movies I can watch over and over:

• The Hot Chick
• 50 First Dates
• Love Actually
• Father of the Bride 1 & 2

Four places I’ve lived:

• My House, Queensland
• Dodgy Student Rental House, Queensland
• That’s all…
• I haven’t gone very far

Four TV shows I love:

• Family Guy
• Scrubs
• That 70s Show
• Australia’s Funniest Home Videos

Four places I’ve vacationed:

• Singapore
• Korea
• Bali
• Australia (NSW, Victoria, Tasmania, QLD)

Four of my favorite dishes:

• Calamari rings with sweet chilli sauce
• Haloumi
• Corn fritters with garlic yoghurty sauce
• Anything from Wagamama

Four sites I visit daily:

• Mine
• Gmail
• Pretty much all my "Delightful People"
• eBay (most days)

Four places I would rather be right now:

• Rolling in a big vault of money (or jewellery), by myself, with large pockets
• Back at Mooloolaba (with Bestie and A)
• W.A (with Bestie)
• Eating at Wagamama with the boy of my dreams (and then, you know, we still get to keep being together, not like a one time only deal)

I’m going to be a puss and not tag anyone, if you’d like to do it, please go ahead.

I have Listerine-d twice and my Queen ulcer is still going strong. Listerine normally destroys my ulcers, but this one just won’t say die. When I had braces I always had massive ulcers, particularly from one of the hooks that you loop the rubber bands around because it would always hook itself into my living of my mouth, but even all of those ulcers didn’t hurt as much as this one.

This morning I pedantically poked on all my teeth and gums just to check I don’t have some horribly infected tooth I wasn’t aware of, but the only part which aches is the big ulcer thing. It has even caused the side of my face to go puffy and is hurting the glands in my neck on that side. I hate hurting, particularly mouth hurting. I am going to go to the dentist in January and get my referral to the surgeon for my wisdom teeth too. I noticed today that most of them are all the way out, but because I have a retainer glued to my teeth (top and bottom), when my wisdom teeth move my other teeth can’t move to make room for them, as I get these massive pressure headaches because nothing will budge. It’s extremely un fun to my in my mouth right now.

Our Christmas is done now. We went out for lunch at 11, dropped D’Nanny back at home at 12:30 and then came home ourselves. We don’t spend Christmas with D’Dad’s side and D’Mummy’s side only consists of D’Nanny these days, so our occasions are always very tiny and quick. I don’t get to go out again now until 7:30 when Textgirl and her partner are having people over. I thought The Ex might be there, but I remembered he was meant to be going away with The Ex extended family, so hopefully he won’t come, I do not feel like being around him. I sort of want to have nothing more to do with him, but to do that, I have to cut off a lot most of the girls and their partners (who I really rather like and don’t want to cut off, so I don’t know what to do?).

I also deleted a lot of old friends whom I haven’t spoken to for ages from my phone, and I’ve received two mystery text messages today. I think one may be Textgirl’s partners phone, but the other I don’t know? I am sorry if you’ve texted me and I haven’t replied, I don’t know which number you belong to, and I’m too scared to reply and sound like a twit. Forgive me?

Now I have to go and waste like six hours moaning in pain and entertaining myself until I get to go out. I hate Christmas Day, it’s so boring!!

I was going to do a "letter to my younger self" post like Deb, but I haven’t finalized all my good ideas yet so you’ll have to wait. I don’t think I’d warn myself against doing almost anything, I think lots of it has been defining moments, but there are times I wish I didn’t feel the way I did about stuff.

Right now, I have the Queen of all ulcers tucked in the far left corner of my mouth. It’s a big long one which feels to be right up in the crease where the inside of your mouth joins onto your gums (does that make sense?). My top left wisdom tooth is also on the move, so the whole side of my mouth aches and feels puffy. Another reminder I need to stop pussing out and have all four wisdom teeth pulled out.

I have decided on some resolutions for next year. I only had two things I wanted to get done this year – I wanted to learn to run and to win a competition. I won a hamper of baby things when A was pregnant and gave it to her, and I learned to run a couple of months ago. Next year I am not going to try and keep lots of resolutions, I only have just a few:

1. Not buy junk. Since I’ve had a bit of extra cash, I can say with all certainty my "quality of life" has not improved at all. I’ve bought clothes I sort of like, make up I don’t need, and so many other things I could have easily lived without. When I had no cash flow, I was buying nothing, but I needed nothing. I’ve continued to need nothing but have bought lots of things because I could. It’s a stupid habit. I am not going to do it next year. I give garbage bags of clothes and shoes to Vinnies every year, so much with tags still on it. I throw away make up I’ve used once, hair products I’ve decided I don’t like, and trinkets I’ve never looked it. I’m a total pack rat, but next year, no more! I am going to make a conscious effort to buy what I’d really love to have, not stuff for the sake of owning things.
2. Live for right now. I am perpetually living for June/July 08, that’s when I’ll graduate, that’s when I get to be a real adult, that’s when I’ll be a worth while person. If I do that it means I have a year and a half of filler. It’s completely the wrong approach to living, I could be hit by a bus tomorrow (which would be kind of depressing cause it’s Christmas, but I am cursed like that) and then it’s all over. No more wishing my life away, I’m so much luckier than millions of other people, I need to get over it and appreciate living, right at this moment. No one else cares that I’m 23 and still at uni, or living at home, or single, so why should it worry me? I like being me right now, so I need to start living like that.
3. Stop being mean to myself. I am my own worst enemy, there is no doubt about it. But lately (like in the past month or so) I think I’ve finally grown up enough to realize that I deserve better. I deserve people who treat me nicely, so I need to treat me nicely as well. No more convincing myself that I need to loose X kg, or have this haircut, or wear these clothes to be a worth while person. I am worthwhile, right at this very second, and the moment I continue to reflect that though in my behavior, other people will believe it to. No more nasty Jen self talk.
4. Wisdom teeth – gone. No more being a sissy girl, they need to be out. They cause me immeasurable pain on a fairly regular occurance and I’m still too much of a sook to get them out. No more wussy girl, I need to be a brave adult and have the big needle, and go to hospital, and have someone slicing around in my mouth and all those other scary things, because it is for the best.

Clearly, learning to run was the easy resolution. All of these new resolutions seem incredibly easy, but also entirely impossible, to achieve. I really dislike that I’m so materialistic, I dislike that whenever anyone says something lovely to me, I’m the first person to remind myself why it’s not true, I hate that I’m so unappreciative of the wonderful, fortunate, privileged position I am in. I’m the only person who can fix any of these, so I’m just going to, no more excuses. I need to stop looking for other people to fix me and do it myself.

D&M, huh?

I hope everyone’s Christmas Eve and Christmas Day is truly magical, I hope you get to spend it around beautiful people who love you dearly, and that you get spoiled with gorgeous gifts (material or otherwise).  Mwah, darlings!!

Well, I did the sneaky and met Eye Boy this arvo. I didn’t want to spill my beans earlier because I knew it would excite you all far too much and it would probably not be worth all the hype. I was right.

Long story, short. Eye Boy = not for me. Blind date = would do it again.

I have realized a couple of really important things though, so I’m really glad of that:

1. I am not so single I want to be involved with someone really badly.
2. I don’t want to do the on line dating thing anymore, I’d much prefer it to happen organically.
3. For Boys, being exceptionally well educated isn’t so important.
4. Straight(ish) teeth and height really is.
5. "6 foot" on line translates to 5’10" in person.
6. I am a bit of a catch, actually.

He was nice enough, I had to look down slightly to look him in the eye so he really wasn’t tall enough for my liking. He also wore all black and really liked to talk about himself. He was also fond of speaking over me and ignoring my contributions to the conversation.

He has three under grad degrees and is halfway through a Masters, and he’s 25. A classic overachiever. He had a little bit of dandruff (I don’t care but it’s a little bit icky to see it sprinkled on the back of a shirt) and he didn’t smell nice. I’m a details girl, I notice the tiny stuff, his glasses were also quite dirty.

When I first walked up, I had the same thought I always get before I go to uni "Hmmm, I could just leave now". I wanted to turn on my heels and chicken out, but I decided to suck it up and go. We talked a lot, there was no awkward silences, he enjoyed talking about himself so I decided to go with it. We saw Borat which was funny, I’m pretty much in love with Sasha Baron Cohen, like a whole lot in love with him. After the movie, I pretty much left right away. I just didn’t really want to spend more time with someone I don’t really want to see again. I tried to be polite about it, but I suppose it was fairly obvious what I thought. He said we should do it again…no, thanks.

The blind date part wasn’t so scary. I learned I can really talk to pretty much anyone, which I am glad about. It was fun to do something different, broaden my horizons and all. I would do it again, but I’d prefer to do it with a person who has been hand picked by someone I know, or met through friends or something. You never know who you might meet on a Nerdfest night, I suppose

I also realized I am a bit of a catch. I think I’ve been selling myself short. I deserve someone nice, I am a nice person, I’m pretty smart, I can be pretty funny, parents love me, I have excellent teeth and I could be worse looking (and someone on Enny’s blog said all of us in the picture have nice chests).

I know it’s all a bit disappointing, though I did discover a new outfit I’d never worn before, and I also found out I really like my new shoes, so it wasn’t a entirely wasted afternoon. Is it a bit weird I left a very ordinary date feeling good about myself?

Three hours and 180 words later I’m starting to realize the assignment might not be happening today.

I’ve lost my assignment mojo.

Deb is feeling very sad about missed out on Ahmet’s so I thought I’d cast the net to see if anyone else would be interested in another Nerdfest early next year, but this time done in reverse order (eat then get trashed)?

Does the 6th of January work for anyone? 6pm ish?

All those who missed out last time and welcome, as well as those who came on Saturday (including Enny, though she probably won’t want to fly up just for a night).

It’s probably way to early to be thinking about next time, but I had such a fun time and I missed not being able to chat to everyone cause people had other plans, but maybe this time people will be free for longer.

The dates are not set in stone, let me know what works or doesn’t work. I’ll book at Ahmet’s this time and I’m also going to see if I can book an area/table at the Plough if we get enough people this time so we won’t have to have any Mexican stand off’s with randoms for a table (and Enny won’t be there and I can’t beat people up myself).

I know you aren’t a Plough fan, Jac, but it really did get much less dodgy after about 7pm (clearly the bogans go home early).

Let me know what you think, Brisbane dears….

So as most of you know we had our inaugural Nerdfest last night.

As awesome as everyone is on line, it’s not always the case in person. To be honest, I was kind of expecting to have a bit of an ordinary time.

HOW WRONG WAS I?!?!

Funnest times ever!!!

I would give a detailed reconstruction of the event, but I’m kind of lazy so I won’t but I will give you some highlights:

• Meeting Adam, Deb, Enny, Jac, Jade, Natalie and TokenWoman!!
• Enny and I sitting on the verandah spying on Adam until we got turfed out because a private function was starting upstairs.
• Hilarious pictures.
• Scoring an awesome table because Enny and I won the Mexican stand off
  with some randoms who thought they’d scored the table.
• Introducing Jac to my Pimms bandwagon.
• Having so many awesome people turn up to our Nerdfest!
• Being able to talk about other Bloggers and Blog stuff and other people knowing what you are talking about.
• Vikings.
• The drink from the bottle which has a crown which tastes like jam.
• Eating awesome Turkish food.
• Long Island Iced Tea.

I so regret I didn’t have a chance to talk very much to Jac, Deb and Jade before they left. Everyone was so lovely it was hard to speak to everyone enough in the first few hours, next time girls!!

Since everyone else has done a individual wrap up of each bloggers, who am I not to? I’ll go in order of who I met first.

Enny. So lovely! Awesome taste in handbags I felt completely comfortable with her after about fifteen seconds of initial weirdness, we didn’t stop chatting the whole night. She’s just absolutely lovely, a fantastic drinking buddy and an awesome ninja spying partner, especially since she could beat someone up while I could run away crying. The only girl I’ve ever known to get drinking blisters! Thanks for letting me give you a mini tour of Brisbane, let’s do it again next time you are here (except maybe less touring and more drinking!).

TokenWoman. So cute! I never realized how tiny she was until she pointed it out. Lots of awesome stories, and some who shares my feelings of overwhelmedness when reviewing a menu. I missed that I haven’t been reading her for a while when she went all private, but she’s so cool in person I will definitely be a total regular from now on (especially cause I can read her again)!

Adam, So awesome! Not so much of a ninja though cause Enny and I totally spied on him for like fifteen minutes and he so didn’t realize, your ninja skills need work. So funny, and very obedient (blogging on a weekend/after work). Also extremely handy to have around as a garbage disposal when you can’t finish a huge plate of Turkish bread and chicken. The photo I linked earlier is just so you, I LOVE it, it’s hysterical!

Natalie, So funny! Every single thing that comes out of this girls mouth is just hilarious, I didn’t ever stop laughing! She has awesome hair and knows lots of things about stuff I had never previously considered (eg. horse sex). Such a super fun person! There are going to be so many catch phrases and inside jokes flying amongst our blogs for ages and it’s all this girl’s fault. I am still laughing thinking about some of the stuff!

Jac, So lovely! She’s just so friendly! The only blogger hug I’ve ever received has been courtesy of Jac, she has pretty pretty hair and is just so fun! She has been converted to Pimms which makes her the coolness just by default, but she totally earned anyways. Any girl who loves drinking quite as much as I do is just awesome! I’m so sad I didn’t get to speak that much to you, Deb or Jade, but next time we will for sure!

Jade, So stylish! I actually saw you and mentally admired your outfit before you came over to us. I don’t think I had a chance to speak with you individually but you are about the bravest person I know to approach a group of people you’ve never met before, or had really seen pics of, so you impressed me on that alone. You seemed so lovely and I’d love to speak more next time.

Deb, So cute! I loves what you were wearing, and we had pearl necklaces which had the same beads so clearly we are shopping twins. You are so tiny, and so pretty! I’m sad we didn’t get to have more of a chat but I’m so pleased you guys made the effort to come for a little while. It was so nice to meet you and now I’ll know who you are when we are both at GC

I had the best time ever, it was so much fun. Everyone got along so well, there was no awkward silences or personality clashes. I don’t think I’ve been removed from anyone’s blog roll yet so I’m pretty sure everyone had a nice time and doesn’t hate me. I wish next time everyone can stay long, the bogans really did seem to move on (as did a lot of other bar patrons) so we got to have a bit more space and were served more quickly at the bar. Around nine we decided to kick on the Ahmet’s Turkish Restaurant, we got an awesome table outside and watched some belly dancing. After that we drank some wine and eat yummy food. Adam’s request of a manly meal fell short when a dish of yogurty veggies came out for him, but my choice of something involving Turkish bread, chicken and yogurt proved much more manly a choice of meal. Pleasant after dinner conversation ensued (horse sex, and the lady arrested for indecent acts involving a horse, amongst other things) and then it started to rain again as well (I am cursed!). Around 11:30 we decided to call it a night and went our separate ways, after trying to find a cab with Enny, Adam ran into us again (I think he was stalking us). It took like thirty minutes for us to grab a taxi (even after I ordered one!) and we almost lost it but between my steely gaze and Enny’s large back we won the cab fight against another group of guys who were also waiting, so we jumped in the cab, leaving Adam standing by the side of the road and we zoomed off into the night.

Total Drinks:
2 Long Island Iced Tea
2 (3?) Pimms and Lemonade
1 Jam drink
2 White Wine

Hangovers:
Zero (GO ME!!!)

Awesome people count:
Eight (plus a half for the "Helloooooooo, Ladiesssssss" guy, and another half for the bar tender who was nice enough to explain the "crown drink" to me and not throw me out for being a drunk twit).

Seriously, it was the best ever! Thank you everyone very much for coming, it was such a super fun time. I now want to meet every Brisbane blogger because we are CLEARLY a super awesome, extra hilarious bunch of people (evidently Canberrian (?) Bloggers and pretty super too)!

We must do it again super soon, and everyone must be in the the long haul this time (*eyes Jade, Jac and Deb*). You guys missed such a super good time!

Look! There’s Elvis! *runs*

Well, you know what they say.

Has everyone seen those 20 Questions toys? Those little ball computer things. I was with D’Brother in Big W today and I decided to have a look at one because I had never seen how it works myself. Well I got sucked in and now own one.

I had been thinking for a couple of days that I’d guess "a shower" if I ever played one cause it would be really hard. I so won with my guess, it couldn’t guess it. I then guessed "a fern" which it guessed "plant" which is pretty good because it probably doesn’t go quite as specific as type of plants. I then guessed "shoes" which it got, and then I guess "a towel" which it got as well. D’Brother was telling me one time he guessed "an elephant" and couldn’t believe it was bale to guess. That’s like one of the easiest guesses ever. I just played now and it would guess "a camera" it tried to guess a cell phone and a PDA. I love any toy which can be as competitive as me!

I have finally pinned down some dates with Bestie, I might actually change my flights today before I forget. From early to mid February. I will be on the other side of Oz, how exciting! Immediately after Scissor Sisters and right before Little Britain. How culturally enriching will February be?!

I think I might also email Eye Boy.

P.S I uploaded more 365 stuff on Flickr too.

On a whim today I popped in and had a reading.

It ended up being a Tarot card reading, she kept playing with this little egg shapes rock and stroking a chunk of amethyst but I don’t know if that was just fiddling or if it meant something. I’ll run you through the things she said, I am a bit skeptical about some of it.

• I feel your are on holiday, or just about to have a holiday. No, not on holiday, won’t be for at least two months. I told her I am not on holiday.
• Oh, I feel you have been incredibly busy, you need a holiday. You mind is forcing you to push on bu your body is tired. You need to start taking vitamins and minerals. A fair comment, and true, but this could be applied to most people.
• I sense a baby around you, do you have a child? No, I only know Little A, no other babies at all.
• I sense there is something wrong with her. Keep a very careful eye on her, you’ll notice she is very lethargic and tired. She needs to go to the doctor, just keep and eye on her. Firstly,  how DARE she tell me stuff like this? I though any good mystic type person would not get negative information because it causes people unnecessary distress. Tired and lethargic are the last two words you could use to describe Little A. I refuse to believe this and I am so not mentioning it to A.
• I feel your course is ending soon. No, in a year and a half. I mentioned something about a prac in passing.
• Are you studying education? Yes, but how many other courses do pracs? Good work picking up on the clue.
• You will get a new job in the new year. There will be a job related to your degree, you will feel very chuffed about the position, it will be very interesting. Hmmm, maybe. I am going to be job hunting after prac, but I think it’s a comment you could apply to most uni students and it’s not unusual for someone to pursue a job in their future field of work.
• There will be some kids that will really challenge you, but some you really love. The ones who challenge you, you’ll just want to kill. That’s so not anything special, of COURSE there are some kids you like and others you don’t.
• I sense a man around you. He’s fairly quiet and hard to get to know, hard to get "inside of". Do you have a boyfriend? I’d say that’s the Ex, but he’s hardly "around me" anymore. I told her I don’t have a boyfriend.
• Mmmm, yes, he is just a friend or someone you know… Obviously? If he is not my boyfriend?
• I get the feeling you don’t really know what you want in a partner. Fair call, I don’t, but again it’s not really something specific to me, how many other people know exactly what they want.
• I sense there will be a guy around you, he’s lot of fun but he’s not "it". Eh, maybe? Still not something which couldn’t be applied to almost every single girl.
• Do you get lots of invitations to go out, but sometimes feel like it’s just too much effort. I wouldn’t say lots, but some, and most of the time I couldn’t be bothered.
• Well you need to go out if you want to meet someone, you have to get out and meet people! Yah, would would have guessed it?

That’s basically all she talked about. How wonderful this new job is going to be, how much I need a break, and how I will be single for at least the next year because I don’t know what I want and I should be concentrating on uni. I asked about my business and she reckons it won’t go anywhere and I’ll never end up working for myself. It’s essentially something I should just not bother with. The holiday I will have next year will be significant for me.

She also contradicted herself a fair bit, she mentioned how she feels all this abundance around me and how I’m so fortunate but I’ve had to struggle and make sacrifices. I’m really not sold on her, I don’t feel she told me anything which was specific to me. How many full time students couldn’t use a break and need to take better care of themselves? How many single girls know exactly what they want in a partner? How many girls know a boy "around them" who could be described and quiet and hard to get to know? How many girls have someone else who is "lots of fun"?

Maybe I should have taken a smaller grain of salt, but I’m not convinced. I think I would like to get another one done fairly soon to see what they say, just to see if it’s similar of different. She was smart and picked up a lot on the small bits of information I gave, I think I can be fairly hard to read as a person if you don’t know me, which is why I think she was rather contradictory, she was trying to cover both ways. I think I’d rather see a straight out psychic next time.

Hmmm, what else? I currently have the shortest hair in Brisbane. Lovely Julia did a great job, but the haircut I got a month or so ago was so uneven and just random in places she had to make it fairly short so it will all grow out evenly. Strangely, I feel much less like a scary lesbian even though my hair is super short, I’m sort of channeling Jessica Rowe at the moment I feel. Thankfully my hair has been growing rather quickly at the moment so hopefully it will get a little bit longer quite soon, haircuts always look better after a week or two.

I went and visited my prac placement today. It’s a tiny center (yay) with no babies (yay) and nice staff (yay) and I get to start prac in early January (super yay!). I think I will like it there.

Eye Boy and I exchanged numbers. He texted me right away. I told him I don’t have time to meet him until January (so my hair gets longer, and cause of uni but mostly their hair!) and he said he’ll wait. Now I am all indifferent. Why am I so stupid? I wanted a boy, so now I meet one who seems rather charming, funny, nice with an excellent job who seems fairly keen on me, and now I don’t like him anymore. Is it self preservation so that if I meet him and I don’t like him/he doesn’t like me I won’t get all hurt or feel disappointed or is it self sabotage? I’m thinking sabotage. Even if I meet him and we couldn’t like each other less I will have still gone on a "date". I’ve never really been on a date, The Ex and I just sort of started going out, there was never any formality about it. I think I’d like to try a date. What do I talk to him about for like a month? I don’t want to get too attached, but then I don’t not want to either?

I also think my old PT is back at my old gym. D’Brother told me he saw his car (he has a particularly memorable number plate, and I saw a car like his in the car park when I drove passed today). I really loved him, he was the type of boy I thought I’d never like (ex professional footballer, doesn’t read, doesn’t know about the Internet, bald, didn’t know what an ipod was) but my god did I love him. He just such a nice person. I think there was a lot more happening than training, we just knew each other more than just someone I spend 30 minutes with twice a week. One night after he’d been away from the gym after his sister had a car accident he wanted to meet me because we "needed talk about things" but for whatever reason I didn’t go, and we sort of stopped training together after that, work schedules started to conflict and all. I wonder what might have been, it’s just once of those things I guess

EDIT: I was looking at my 365 pics and I’ve noticed that my eyebrows seem to be merging into one. I so need an eyebrow wax but I just don’t feel like being hurt, I might attempt to tweezer them. If you see my on Saturday with my shortest hair ever haircut and two different sized eyebrows, just roll with it.

P.S the man across the road has been taking down his carport. The method he’s just to get the TIN roof off is to stand under it and strike upwards with a hammer to remove the sheets. USE A SCREWDRIVER OR SOME OTHER TOOL TO LOOSEN IT FIRST. I am going to go and beat him up now for being so annoying, who’s got my back?