All Filler, No Killer

Let’s be honest, the dots are a bit inescapable at the moment. There is no way to coherantly link all the parts of my life at the moment so lets just chunk them, alright?

• Miss Jones. She’s working at Splendor this weekend so I am currently feeling like I’ve lost my right arm, this means that next week is going to be particuarly shit when I will possibly never see her again. I dropped a small fortune on her going away present, in my mind it feels like the more I spend, the more she’ll know how much I will miss her. I have also been requested to make a scoodie for her (like what I made for Wifey when she went to London). I am feeling a little susperstitous and suspect that it will mean she’ll never come back, because the last scoodie recipient has no plans to return, but so be it – if she wants a scoodie, she’ll have a scoodie. So not ready to call time on this yet, it was four months the other day, that’s not long enough!!

• Bootcamp. I am starting to really love it, it’s 45 minutes/1 hour of sweating and puffing but I feel so good afterwards and now I don’t ache so badly anymore so it’s pretty good. I don’t feel any smaller or less jiggly but I can already tell my fitness is getting better.Last night my trainer mentioned carb cycling and said how it’s made a huge different to some people who were trying to slim down. It sounds pretty easy so I am gonna try it. It’s only a three day cycle – one day you can et carbs for breakfast, lunch and dinner, the next day you eat carbs at breakfast or lunch and the final day you eat no carbs, you can repeat it again and then have one day of moderate eating or just start again at high carb. The idea is that your body gets it’s carb hit, then in the next couple of days tops up the energy it needs from your fat stores, then gets another carb hit so it doesn’t go into starvation mode. It appeals to me because it is short (I have a limited attention span when it comes to these sorts of things) and it doesn’t require going without for long periods (if I tried to cut out all carbs, I’d die). I might as well eat better while doing all this exercise junk, why not right?

• Work. I took a mental health day today. It’s not good to wake up every morning and be disappointed that you didn’t die in your sleep and therefore have to go to work. I need to get out of the industry, it’s not fair to the kids to be teaching when I am not feeling it anymore and I’d hate to become one of those awful, jaded teachers who just keep doing it because they never bothered to change careers. Anyways, I don’t care to talk about it any longer, I want two days of work free thinking.

• Crafty shit. Went to Spotlight today for scoodie supplies and got a screen printing kit for $15! It’s only a kiddies one, but it comes with screen silk, screen filler, paints, a frame and all the other junk for making screens for printing. It’s pretty tops, I’ve wanted to screen for ages but have never done it because it’s so exxy to get into but $15 is just right! I was talking with Miss Jones over breakfast about how much I love making stuff, I don’t know why I don’t do it more. Well, I do know why, it’s totally self sabotage – making shit makes me genuinely happy and I am pretty good at talking myself out of doing things like that in favour of stuff I “should” do and that annoys me.