Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known

I’m clawing my way out of the rut, little baby steps in the right direction.

I’ve decided to try some Aura-Soma with Joycelle (my all round go-to-gal). A while ago during a reading she had me pick some bottles, one of the ones I picked was like an indication that “your heart is still too overwhelmed by lack of true love to be open to receive direction yet”. This is totally spot on, unrequited love was also mentioned and everyone knows if there is one thing I excel at, it’s loving someone who can’t or won’t or just doesn’t love me back. I’m still bogged down in it. I’m not in love with Miss Jones anymore, I had to stop that when she moved overseas for my own sanity. There were a couple of revelations this weekend (let’s say) which would have absolutely destroyed me if I hadn’t done this, so I’m really glad I did but I still love her. I still need more distance from her, I need to try and believe I can meet someone else and be happy with someone else and I think this might help with that. It’s also related to a heap of other things, and my massive need to search out things or people or relationships to make me happy and feeling worthwhile because I can’t do it for myself.

I know it’s not for everyone and some people see it as a very expensive bottle of oil but I’m open minded and if nothing else it’s a really, really beautiful bottle of amazingly prettily colored oil, so that alone works for me. I was skeptical about crystals until they gave me a massive migraine and sucked all my energy because I was wearing too many and the wrong combination of them, so I am happy to see what happens with this.

In other news, I applied to uni next year. My grand plan is to be offered a place in the dual degree program, then if I get my market running properly, I could do one each weekend and then I could afford to not have to work during the week. Unless I have a whole day free the Magic Shop wouldn’t really work anymore because there is no real way that half day shifts would work. I actually love doing markets, I had such fun at the one I did earlier this month. I was much less terrified than I expected to be and I actually did pretty well considering the minute turn out. I imagine in an actual market setting I could do even better, it was exciting.