Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known

Sorry the posting has been a bit light around the traps. It’s been Christmas, D’Nanny was in hospital for a bit, and for a while it was just really hot, so handling a hot laptop was very unappealing. It’s not all bad though, my first piece is up over at GTS, I went on a date last night and it was super fun and there is every chance we’ll do it again soon (I resisted the urge to gush about it on FB, because we are now FB friends. Playing it cool is hard work!) and 2009 is almost over!

Right, so let’s see what I got up to this year, and if anything matched up with what I had hoped to get out of 2009:

• Learn guitar or uke – No, don’t even own a musical instrument.
• Get one paid writing gig – Yes, however not paid in cash but repaid with tickets to events and stuff, so I am still ok to check this one off.
• Get my first aid cert – Not even close.
• Define my personal style – wear more dresses and skirts – Yep, not so much skirts, but dresses for sure.
• Return to Japan to visit Osaka and Hiroshima - Hellz no, but I made it to NZ. That’s worth half a point, right?
• Visit Adelaide (I want to visit every state in Oz and I have decided to make Adelaide my place for this year) – No, but I’ll be in Melbs next weekend so at least I’ve left the state.
• Save at least $2000 by Dec 31st. (This means I must have $2000 by next NYE – not save it then spend it on a holiday or something, just have it there) – Technically there is still time, but I am skeptical. Considering my saving are currently nil.
• Become a one-drink wonder. (I was going to stop drinking all together this year, but I decided that being a “one drink” person would actually be harder for me. I am not going to drink to get drunk at all this year. I am going to have a glass of wine to appreciate the taste or a cocktail to try one I’ve never had before – no dirty pre-mixed drinks, no spirits!) – Yep, I can do this now. I think I’ve only be really messy once this year!
• Change my hair – not big cuts! (Nothing drastic but I want a new style and I’m never commited enough to grow out my hair so I have some options. I’ve not had my hair cut for like 3.5 months now so it’s getting kinda long which is good!) – Yep, I’ve got something that is quite different for me and it’s fun. I like it.
• Get my bees and Sarah Silverman tattoo (Not a tattoo of Sarah Silverman, that would be weird. It’s a tattoo of something from her show) – Not techincally, but I started my half sleeve so that is equally as exciting. I still want the bees though, a bunch, but will probably wait until it’s a bit cooler. Having gladwrapped knees during 36 degree weather would be the worst thing ever.
• Launch the new blog/site – Yes, then lost the motivation/inspiration soon after! One blog is enough fr me.
• Score a real teaching gig – Done, I’ll be ok if I never do it again
• Stop impulse buying – To a degree, but I’ve gotten a little bit worse lately.
• Buy more recycled clothing – Not a great deal, but I shop at op shops on a semi-regular basis, it’s just finding stuff I LIKE that is tricky.
• Try roller derby – Nup, never even attending a bout. “Whip It” really proved I don’t have the balls for it.

So, it’s a bit of a mixed bag, I did some stuff, did some other stuff in kind of a round about way and other stuff didn’t even get a look in. Overall, 2009 was balls. 2008 was a great year, so it is only fair that 2009 was a bit shit, fingers crossed 2010 is epic!

Catch you on the flip side!

I’m a Grace.

Dear Lord, it feels like I’ve signed a book contract or something. I wanted to be one soooooo much, and now I am. O’Neil and Chu liked my piece so I am in! I know a bunch of you want to read my sample blog so I’ve checked if they are going to post it, if they do I’ll link you, if they don’t I’ll throw it up here.

I’ll let you know my Grace name and all of that once it is finalised, I got the official nod while I was away and I came back home and went straight back to work so I still haven’t really processed it all plus emailing with awesome chicks on the other side of the world makes for some time difference issues.

In other news, I had an epic weekend with Jac. It involved hundreds of dollars worth of cocktails, some burgers and a motherfucking BUNNY RABBIT. It was supremely awesome, I think I can make it through until next time I see her because I’ve topped up on all the Jac-lovin I needed. Now she is off to London (story of my fucking life, much?) but unlike so many others, I believe she will definitely come back to me.

Better update when I’ve actually wrangled a day off and have survived Christmas. Happy holidays to you and yours if I don’t update before Friday. xxx

First, I got into uni. I always thought I was going to, then someone asked what I’d do if I didn’t get in and I had never considered that possibility, so I was freaking out for a while, but I got in. I’ve enrolled already because: 1) I am a big, fat, uni lover who can’t get enough of the “student” tag. 2) I want to make sure my place is mine and confirmed so no one will take it away from me.  I chose to major in management for my business degree and fashion for creative industries, it was gonna be management or HR, and I’m just a bit over the humanities type subjects, so management it is. I am sure it will involve some of the touchy feely stuff, but also strategies, and I fucking love a good strategy!

Two, Earlier this week I found out that Grace The Spot was looking for a new Grace. GTS is my favorite of all the lady lovin’ blogs on the net so I just had to email them and earlier today I got an email back from the editor-in-chief who told me they are looking for more writers and would love to have me on board. I just need to do a sample blog post for them to make sure I gel with the GTS style. I think I can do it, at least I believe I can do it. GTS is my style – informal, chatty and funny, and when I’m actually trying, I can be all of those things Cross your fingers, toes and anything else you can manage to cross, I really want to be a Grace!!

Lastly, but in no way leastly, I SEE MY SISTER FROM ANOTHER MISTER ON THE WEEKEND. I have little doubt Jac is my twin spirit, it’s like we were split from the same embryo….while at the same time being fundamentally different in some respects. Regardless, I get to enjoy almost three whole days of her delicious company. I suspect I might weep with joy the entire time, because she is just the shiny, red cherry on my fantastically awesome week. I ADORE her. Expect several thousand pictures. I was thinking of doing like a photo an hour or something, a photo essay of every bit of my entire weekend or something. Fuck. Yes!

• Why do they make kebabs in different sizes? Granted, I don’t have them often but it seems regardless of whether I order a small or a regular, they are always massive. If they can only make one size, why not just HAVE one size and one price?? Surely it would make things easier.

• Why do Christmas and school holidays make people bad drivers? I can’t tell whether it’s all the people who rarely go out who are now out in the traffic making life shit for other drivers, or if everyone is so stressed and distracted that no one concerns themselves with frivolous things like basic road safety. If there was ever a time of year that would drive me to become a public transport junkie, it’d be Christmas.

• Why do I sneeze when I pluck my right eyebrow?

• When did you stop believing in Santa? I don’t remember when I did, nor do I remember being particularly upset. I actually think I kinda just worked it out for myself when I was around 10.

• How humid can it become before it just starts raining in your living room? I don’t know, but I imagine it’s pretty close to what Brisbane is at the moment. The air is thick and wet here at the moment, as soon as you leave the soothing comfort of an air conditioned place, it’s like someone has thrown a hot, wet blanket over you.

• Why do people say things like “I love you” and “I’m sorry” when they really don’t mean it? It’s one thing to talk the talk, but it’s another to walk to walk. Anyone can say “I love you” but not everyone can show they love you. If you don’t know what to do that would show someone you love them, or don’t want to do the things that would show love, then just don’t say it. Same with sorry, don’t apologise when we both know that if you had the time again, things wouldn’t go down much differently. It’s just kinda insulting.

• Why did I not dye my brows sooner? It’s kinda great. Ditto with tinting my lashes. I’ve had it done professionally and each time it’s hurt like a bitch. I did it myself yesterday and I didn’t hurt at all, and it made my lashes darker so it’s not like it didn’t work.

• Are there any lesbians who don’t like utes and/or outdoor activities and water sports. I’ve been browsing online and every one of them seems to have some glaring grammatical error that I can’t handle or they are someone who seems like my polar opposite.  Surely there is some girl out there who doesn’t want to go 4wding and then follow things up with a rugby match and pies, or spend all day at some political rally then retire to a big vegan dinner with discussions about how bad police/politicians are. Does anyone just wanna go the brunch and read newspapers for a few hours? Or go eat someplace fun and then get pissy?  Are any of the people who wanna do this girls who are also into the ladiesssss.

• I’ve been thinking about my “ideal life” post. It not something I wanna rush cause, dude, if you’re gonna be projecting every hope and dream you’ve got for your life out into the world for it all to come true, you don’t wanna miss anything, right?? I suspect it will be a rather epic post.

• I’ve done some paper cuttings for my shop and I threw them up on Facebook as a bit of a tester. (P.S. If you’re a regular, we should be FB friends, you’re missing out on SO much, FB is what is causing the demise of the blog.) I sold four in a day! I think they are a winner. I am doing another market on Sunday and I’ll take some more then and see how it all goes. Hopefully well!

• I’ve been using my Aura-Soma bottle for almost a week now. I hadn’t really noticed much of a difference so Joycelle suggested I amp things up a bit. I have felt things a bit more intensely under the new plan. I am having trouble using it as often as I should be, I tend to be in and out often during the day and it’s been super hot lately, so any non essential touching of skin has just been such an unattractive thought. Today felt better though, and I will be home more tomorrow so hopefully I’ll get a few more rounds done then.

• One things I did realize today is how often I am complimented. Lately, it’s been on my tattoos (which is lovely and so much better than the usual “Is that a real tattoo?” or “Wow, that’s a lot of tattoos”) but today a cashier told me my haircut was really pretty. I often get told I have great skin, good teeth, cool hair or something about my tattoos or perfume (strangely enough, I can usually never smell it once I put it on, but everyone else still can). I always say thank you but then immediately dismiss it and today it just struck me how stupid that idea is. It’s not just people being nice, I often get true and sincere compliments but I never take any notice but around groups of guys or teenagers, I actively listen and expect something nasty to be said. It almost never happens, but in my mind I almost suggest things that they could pay me about about and just wait for it to happen. How fucking messed up is that?? Today it just really struck me that it was so kind of this girl to say she liked my hair and that she serves hundreds of people every day and she choose to open her mouth and say something nice to me, how can I immediately dismiss someone. I do truly believe that the majority of people are good and kind but I kind of assume that I should be treated badly, almost like I deserve to be paid out about everything. I am going to stop being so fucking horrible to myself and listen to what people are telling me. It sounds basic and blindingly obvious but I always need a lightbulb moment to see things properly.

• I am pretty well ready to wave goodbye to 2009. Did anyone have a great year, this year? Pretty well everyone I’ve been talking to is so ready to see the arse end of this year. This year I moved back to Oz, started a masters, quit a masters, started a job, quit the job, did a quick run to NZ and came back and started a business. I also met Miss Jones which was an up, but now she’s gone and I’ve accepted that she’s as good as gone forever now, so that’s not awesome. It felt like this year had the potential for things to be great, but it never quite made it. In the next couple of weeks I’ll review my goals for 2009 and reveal my big plans for 2010 (not that I’ve made them just yet, but shhhh, I’ll have them ready soon!)

• Last night I had a dream that I got into the course I wanted at uni and I showed up to my first day. It was 8am – 8pm on a Monday, with no breaks. I was ok with that. It involved a train ride deep into a forest, then we had to track our way back to the building. We had to climb over a big, thick barbed wire fence and climb though a hole in a wall. We then also had to care for babies, except the babies I had were twins….who each fit in the palm of my hand and would often jump out of my hands and crawl under tables and behind stuff. In the dream, none of this seemed particularly strange and, even weirder, none of this made me think “You know what? Fuck this, I don’t want to do this course” and the time I was thinking “YES, I am studying fashion, this is so fantastic, I can’t wait to get straight into the cool stuff”. Let’s just contrast this with the numerous times I would drive to uni to go to a tute or lecture and arrive to find a line to get a car space and then just drive home again because it was too much trouble to wait. I should find out if I’ve been accepted either this week or in 2 weeks time (depending when they do the offers for the courses I applied for. Please cross your fingers for me!?)